food for thought

where's love when you need it. i feel as though, us as people look in the wrong places for someone, and we look for the wrong things in that person. i feel as if we stop lookin for once, we will find someone and be happy about it. i look for someone, just because i dread loneliness, but i know you cant truly find love, you have to be patient, it comes to you..maybe this is my food for thought.. hmm..

on another note.. i went to explain my thoughts to my mom, she falls rite to sleep.. rude much.. lol but i expected that from her, cause thats all we doo, eat sleep love and pray.. =)

it is that one person thou... but imma shut up and let it go!

(the spotlight makes your nervous -karaoke, drake)

i love you guys :)

your friends really make you think, they are always there for you.. thru good and bad, thru ups and downs.. man i love these females (and males too) these bitties.. man.. idk what life would be without them.. if you my female friend, i love you, i love you, and i love you :)

im sorry if i dont have a pic of all my friends, but pic or no pic, i love you :)

one night!

the heat in the air, my body's calling for you. gripping the sheets, scratching your back, do you like it like that ?? toes curling, body's turning, i'm yearning for you babe, you melting inside me, im trying to fight it, but i cant deny it. screams of pleasure, you love to make me cry, give you the treat of whats in between these thighs ;).. give it to me tender, but let it end rough, baby please get tough. pull my hair, i know its weave, you wanna see the tricks thats up my sleeve... i like to experiment, and baby you can be my test subject, do what i want on you, what i like on you... can i put my mouth rite there? can you put your tongue in here? you do the math :)... i wanna make it rain tonite, until tomorrow evening. buts lets not stay in the same room, can you make me move like a uhaul truck.. baby please say yes... cause im willing to do what you want me to do.. just one night, come to me, come with me, come in me :)

no more words ♥

xoxo

lately, i see him, its not intentionally, maybe sometimes accidently... okay i lied, it was purposely. i knew he was going to be there, and i just had to see him. to see if my heart still beat the way it did the first time i laid eyes on him. i know he didn't see me as anything and sometimes i wonder if he still do. its been a year since the first time i met him, caramel, cute smile, you know... he's a cutie, definitely in my eyes. i want to live to see his smile, again, and again :) its like i see him, i cant help but feel shy, to smile... the nerves going thru my body is crazy. i wish i could just let him know...

how do i let him know...

i have this feeling he's the FIRE i need to light up my candle...

no more words, for now *♥

knowing you, knowing me?

the lucky ?

1. full name - michelle monique taylor

2. birth-date - wednesday, october 2, 1991

3. favorite colors - green, blue and especially black :)

4. i love = writing(*♥) reading, socializing, listening to music, hanging with my girls

5. lucky number is two :)

6. believes that NO ONE should be alone

7. smiling is a habit

8. i have light brown iris colored eyes ;)

9. love's cookies :)

10. i will always love mr and ms james w. taylor (*parents;)

11. love the sound of smooth r&b

12. hates when people say fucking, its called sex, but i prefer it be called love making

13. a little bit too romantic

15. too emotional

...

if i let it all out,

then it wont be nothing to hide

i mean i love to be learned

but it's things inside

that i want you to find

without, me telling.

lemme be a mystery

and you have to solve the crime

are you down?

cause if this was you

i be quick on the case

full of anticipation

like my heart pace

your beautiful face

baby boy where you be?

i wanna be

knowing you, like you wanna be

knowing me :)

love & life;

i dream a lot, and what i dream, i like to believe. yet someone recently told me life isn't a fairy tale. and i know that true. but i like to think optimistic about life. maybe i sound young, maybe i sound old. maybe i'm just confused. i gotta let everything off my chest.

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i thought back on december 26, 2009 the rainy nite, our favorite nite. i remember him, i really was fallin for him. strange huh. then i think on january, when things went wrong. the crying. the pain. my heart broke, i wasnt in love with him but i was in a deep like of him. we met in the rain, and we ended it in the rain.. april came.. and i saw him again. my heart dropped and i was talkin to someone else, my april babe..:) . i told him, cried on the phone with him and everything. he said to me.. "either me or him"... i stuck with april over november.. till june, and i look back now and i'm alone... things happen for a reason

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october 21, 2007. my first love... my first heartbreak... back then i love him. rite now i dislike him. i would say hate, but what kind of person would i be. the fighting, the pain. the abuse.. the sneaking around.. the creeping.. i fell in love with my bestfriend and they know who that is. my lil secret they were... i told him about it.. but he didnt see it as a threat.. how dont you see it as a threat when i spend more time with this person.. i was THIS close to kissing them... me and my first love relationship died in january ( when everything dies for me ) but we didnt break up till june.. june 9, 2008.. probably the best day of my life... i remember my brother graduation.. he told me he never loved me.. i cried until the end of july... then aug. he came back, left back in october, our anniversary, came back in april, left on our anniversary again..and we havent talked ever since :) .. thank you

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i remember july.. the hottest day, my dad bday.. i met you, talk to you all nite and at the end of our phone conversation, i called you babe. maybe the sweetest out of them all.. i was 15 you was 18. my dominican lover... you wanted to be my first.. but sadly you wasnt.. i left you in september.. 2 days after your birthday.. i miss you sometimes.. just maybe more as a friend..

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now i cant forget you.. and if he ever stumble upon this he should know why. i think about our passionate kiss, the passion that lingered everywhere we went.. i looked at you and i can feel the heat from across the room. it was a pleasure to be so close to you... i miss you.. no lie.. i wanna see you again.. in the future.. no more word ♥

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i didnt have that many that left my life.. its more to come .. i can say.. my heart lingers for love, for passion, for friendship.. for everything, that one of them gave me.. i think i mite find it, then i wont...! now i dont know if i should be thinkin about "life isnt a fairy tale person" kinda crushin my dreams and all, yet a person who speaks their mind...hmm!!

( now letting go :)