in my mind...

the other day. i crashed and i burned. no one caught me... i needed it. im slowing getting back on my feet. things will get better i promise myself that. my family... they are driving me to crazy but i love them and we gonna get through.. we gonna keep our house.. even if we lose fingers toes and all the other things we have. pain shows on everyone faces and it seems everyone is smoking and drinking their pain. im writing and thinking. its all i could do. i play with the babies to keep a smile on my face. they are too young to understand.

my friends are here for me. you realize who really there for you when things get rough. i love them all. they keep me smiling. i look at that necklace purple bought me... i got speak no evil...its a monkey and its covering his mouth. blue got hear no evil and purple got see no evil. imma talk more positive even though everyone tell me im one of the most positive people they know... maybe when it comes to my life, its a different story

right now im addicted to sex and the city and honey bunches of oats..they make me happy, and i found my appetite in cereal again =) oh how i miss thy so much.

on the phone the other day... somone told me i can make anyone fall in love with me.. later on i get 2 text messages sayin im too good to be true.. i told them i was talkin to someone... upset a few.. but im faithful..even if im not in a relationship. i cant talk to anyone else..even thou they all say keep your options open so you wont fall your face. i rather fall on my face with marcus then keep my options fully open. i care too much =)

on my mind, in my mind,